Wanting that Cookie

 Like everything when people design or create something, it's for a good purpose. In the beginning I wanted to teach my dad how to use the internet because he is jobless like me and I just didn't want him to be bored. In the beginning it was hard for him because he can't read english well and he had no clue. But in the last month he progressed and eventually one day I was sitting down with my dad and my mom eating and all of a sudden he asked me the question. I knew it was going to happen eventually and when it did... I ignored the question. Your probably wondering what question would it be? Learning something new always involves the eventual wants of learning something bad. Like a language the very first thing I want to learn are the bad words because what's a language without a few surprises. The normality of being bad is something we all want to feel even if it's simple like being told not to eat the cookie in the cookie jar. We probably didn't want it anyway but the act of being told you can't have it makes you want it more. The wanting is what gets you in trouble. The question is how do you make yourself not want something? I have learned a couple steps. Number 1 take a deep breath and think about the situation. Number 2 take another deep breath and think about it some more. Number 3 do 1 and 2. Thinking and breathing and repeating just makes rash decisions into a logical decision. If you really want something it's like the heat of the moment. You don't want it but you want it because you thought you want it. Therefore my thinking about not wanting makes you realize that wanting is something you don't want. As confusing as this is to want something means there are sacrifices. In my dads case if you haven't guessed it yet he asked me about dirty sites. As a guy in the modern age of course I have seen dirty sites but to tell my dad it be encouraging him bad values. I don't know if he watches it now or not but regardless I don't want to be the one to tell him. At the same time of course I know some I'm a guy and girls know it to I know some girls that watch that stuff. But pornography is a big issue something I'll talk about another time. As funny or weird as this situation is with my dad it's normal to me. We are all curious beings and we want to know what we don't know. For some people there happy with being conservative like doing routine things. For others it's about improving themselves. Life is what we make it and for those who are addicted to Jersey Shore and don't know why it's simple. We want to know how the opposite of us are. Geeks want to be jocks and jocks want to be geeks. As contradictory as that is there is a spectrum of similarities in all of us but what makes us, us and us trying to be ourselves. No one will ever be you and you can never be yourself so stop trying so hard to emulate and do you.